Like the author from Eat Pray and Love ( talked about it in the previous post), I have been in and out of relationships without pausing. As if I didn't want to deal with myself or couldn't stand myself sadly. I don't know why I tend to be a bit too obsessed with guys, it leads me too often to bad relationships.
I always a loneliness, i always wanted someone to talk to every night about everything, someone to confide in, someone who would really listen. And its because i want it so badly, that I am blind in relationships and get with super jerks.
But I decided for 2011 things must change, I want to learn how to appreciate being just me. Doing things by myself or with friends. I want to be free of this loneliness and be content with myself. I know must work on my self-esteem also. But I do accept that I like dating, cuddling and kissing but I want to be more independent and more "just me"
I have never had a really ( honest without feeling attraction) relation with a guy, I mean I have never had a guy friend. For 2011 I intend on changing this also, I want make more guy friends and be a better friend.
I am going to stop attempting to date guys, have more guys friends and enjoy my singlehood!
Learn more about myself, educate myself and have fun...and one day who knows the right guy will come along. No mo jerks! ;)
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